fleeting

I will hate the day that I will not miss you.


That day when I can't even remember why I loved you. And how much I loved you. I don't want the day to come when I can't remember your marvelous eyes and the love I feel whenever I gaze on them. I will hate the day when I can't remember your smile and how it makes my day just to see you wear it. And I will despise the day when I can't even remember what we did when we loved each other. The memories we made and how happy and loved I felt when I was with you. 

I hope I savored those moments more than I savored them. 

Made the  most of our time together. 

Made very moment count. 

Every once of love. 

Because today we are falling apart. 

Today, I love you.

Today, I miss you. 

bagong taong tula

Hindi madaling magsimula

Ngunit sa kabilang banda ay parang lang itong pagsusulat ng tula

Kailangan mo lang pumili ng mga salita

Maghanap ng isang diwa at buuin gamit ang mga talata



Hindi madaling magsimula

Tila bang kinakalaban mo ang ilog na malaya

Gamit lang ang dalawang sagwan sa maliit na bangka

Pasalungat sa malalakas na agos na rumaragasa



Hindi madaling magsimula

Ngunit minsan ay kailangan mo lang talaga

Hindi naman ibig sabihin ng simula ay parang isang kisap mata

Bagkus ay kabaliktaran ang bilis ng isang nawawalang bula



Hindi madaling magsimula

Ngunit maari kang magsimula sa pagpikit ng iyong mata

Magdahan-dahan, tumigil at muling huminga

Isisigaw sa sarili na ang umaga ay sariwa at may dalang bagong sigla

berde

Hindi maiwasang umasa

Sa mga oras na kasama ka

Nararamdaman na ako'y nangagnako sa wala

Isang pangarap na parang bula

Ninanais kong di pakawalan

Ngunit nang aking sinubok na hawakan

Biglaan na lang akong nawalan

Hindi ko masabing ako'y malungkot

Ngunit hindi ko masabing ako ay tunay na masaya

Patawad kung di ako makuntento kung ano tayong dalawa

Patawad kung minamahal na kita

----Tsaka ko na lang aayusin to.

mali

maari bang malungkot

maari bang magalit

maari bang hindi na ikubli

ang nararamdamang sakit na pilit kong isinasantabi

the message

Of all the suits, clubs, hearts, spades, or diamonds. 

"The hearts is the most dangerous of all. People die of broken hearts. They have heart attacks. And it's the heart that hurts most when things go wrong and fall apart."

- Markus Zusak

time

they say how would i describe you.

i say you are the fire by my side in a merciless jungle, keeping me safe for the terrors of the night

the hearth of the home i long for, giving me hope and reassuring me that i belong

thespacetomysentences, without meaning in your absence

you are spine of my favorite book, keeping me intact amidst all confusion

the aglet of my shoe laces, holding me together and not break apart

and the smooth brim of my cup, the smallest detail that when gone renders me useless

you are my strength





and you are my weakness

fancy

when can it be called a date?
is it when it is planned?
or when the boy gets to pay?
is it when we are considered lovers?
or maybe when we both give it our consent?

how can it be called a date?
it was not planned.
i did not pay for it.
nor we are lovers.
but we both gave it our consent.

i hope this will not be our first and last not date

once...

Everyone says goodbye. We part with a friend or a lover. But what should we do to make the parting beautiful? We have to be loyal to the process. We dare to say it is a beautiful goodbye. We remember it as a memory to be cherished not a moment that passed. It may be over but be happy that it happened.