Back then

The time when I was so obsessed or infatuated by her seems so long ago.  The time when she was the epitome of beauty, the good in my good morning, and the one who completes my day is now a distant memory. I still can’t remember or understand how and when did that happen. The last thing I remembered was that I was so attached to my feelings for her that I even promised and vowed to myself to remember her as long as I’m living. Solitatiurs ert eternum. Now I can’t even rationalize to myself why and how did I fall in that long for her.She is one heck of a beautiful girl and she is very lovable that is why. I remember the days that I can never finish a day without telling to myself how lovely she was but how you helped me forget her. I don’t know, actually I know how that happened. You happened. You happened to be my classmate, my blockmate, my constant companion, and apparently became my first love. You of all people. Why? Not that I don’t want it. Its just that I can’t because you are you. The first time we met, were just schoolmates, just ordinary friend until I slowly learned how to love you.  From that moment on, our small talks became one of my favorite routine. The small alks that makes me happy, the small debates that makes me want to know you more, and the jealousy that I fell every time you talk with  him. Yeah, I actually envy him. I am jealous.. I know I don’t have the right to, but that is why I keep it to myself and not tell you. I know I don’t  have the right to tell you but I have the right to feel it. Now I can surely say that I have found my first love. Thanks for clearing that misconception of my life.