Colder

We were not always like this. We were not always silent and cold towards each other. We weren't always this awkward. On the contrary, we were comfortable in each other’s company. We shared jokes, laughter, adventures, memories, cries, and secrets, almost everyday. We were friends. My only mistake was falling for her. I learned how to love her smile, her eyes, her presence, her all. I loved her. I loved her but then we started to fall apart. We started to drift apart. Our small talks, that meant more to me than she could ever know, became smaller and smaller until it vanished. Our times together became insignificant to her, a waste of time even. Her smiles turned to silent treatments and her laughter turned into the space between us. Silence swallowed our conversations. Our memories turned from sweet and innocent into hard and dreadful. I should have not fallen for you. I would rather go back to that time when we shared these wonderful things. I miss those moments. I miss our time together. I miss us, if there was even an us. But no matter what, you will always be here. You will always be part of my life. You will always be my first love.